Hey everyone! My name's Annie and I've been battling eating disorders since I was 13. My parents are the ones that I know pushed me to it. It's always "You're too fat!" or "Stop eating you're as big as a cow!" Then I stop eating and kill myself to lose weight just to make them happy only to be told that I'm a "stupid idiot" for being brainwashed by skinny models. Sometimes I just cry myself to sleep and convince myself that tomorrow'll be a better day. I hate it when people call me "pretty" because I know that they don't mean it and they're just lying. They just feel sorry for me because I'm fat and ugly. I'm always stressed out because of school and sports. My friends were the only ones that really understood and cared about me. They wanted me to be healthy, they even came over my house to make low calorie salads and told me that it was okay to eat it. But now I don't even have them because I just moved to a new town. I lost myself, I don't know what my body wants anymore. I just want to feel happy again. I hate being fat. I want to feel the strain of being empty again because it made me feel alive. It made my head spin beautifully like I was dancing. I just want to feel pretty.

Height: 5'3
CW: 178 (FAT)
HW:184
LW: 145
GW:130

Please you guys, I really need people who understand me and support me right now.

All my love. 

this is a picture of me and one of my bestfriends. she is also from l.j and we are sooo lucky to have each other. we went to the mall today and took some funny pictures while trying on dresses. i really like this one. I'm the blonde one"Annie" and she's the other one."Christy". I really need to get back on track. Starting Monday. I only eat lunch 3 times a week. christy and I have many plans to get out of eating with our friends. something like "I have an appointment" then we just leave the school at lunch time! iloveyou ladies and gents and I'm sorry I havnt been on more often. please help me through this stressfull school year! plus while we were at the mall 2 guys totaly checked me out!!! so proud. almost 100 pounds. wish me luck!

loveyou
ss&tt
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i get 500 calories tomorrow
kinda excited cause my nose is sorta stuffy (and i LOVE being sick. lol weird.) but ill probably wake up fine tomorrow, cause my immune system kicks total ass
but
it wont matter because its either the flies go, or i go.
fuck me for leaving a glass of juice down here last weekend.
there are six flies that must die tonight.
oh yes, there will be blood.

hey everyone how are you all doing ?

So today i went to get sushi with a bunch of people today so i didnt eat anything else all day and im gonna round up to 650 for the day.

i wanted to keep down to 400 a day.

but yesterday i stayed at around 300.

only 150 over for the two days. =/ i guess thats alright.

especially since im going to be out at the beach in the hot sun ALLL day tomorrow with nothing but water to keep me going.

its crazy because after the sushi tonight i have been completely energized and i dont know what to do with myself im alll over the place with energy =p

hope your all staying strong and doing well =D

so I had to end my 45 hour, only water fast, about 15 minutes ago. (dinner will be the doom of me)

didn't eat too much so I think I'm going to be okay.
had a salad that consisted of tomato, cucumber and mustard. (sounds sort of sick with mustard but I absolutely love it)
I'm going to overestimate and say 50 cals.

plan to eat popcorn to get my parents off my back, even if I eat the entire bag, it'll only be 225 cals.

so today's intake should be (will be) 275 cals.

fasting again starting Saturday night 9:00 pm to Tuesday 7:00 pm. 70 hours. I'm planning just water, but we'll see how it goes. all of you lovely ladies and gorgeous guys (there's a few of them here. <333) are welcome to join me.

hope all of you had a great day.
and if not, tomorrow you can start anew.
I'm going to be on for awhile so feel free to message. =D

---byes.

I dont mean to sound disgusting but has anyone noticed constapation, or maybe not doing a number 2 for up 2 a week as a result of not eating?? it makes me feel bloated and disgusting. how can I fix this?

also......I have been playing rugby leage this week and you have to use your shoulders to tackle your apponnent and they are sore as hell!!! theyve been sore for about 3 days now, anyone got anything that could make them not feel as sore? it doesnt help when I really wanna exercise as well...it hurts my arms and shoulders when I do

stay strong

xx

anyone wanna do a 3 day water fast with me?  i hear also drinking tea (like from tea bags w/ no sugar or splenda) hot or cold helps boost metabalism.  we can lend eachother support when we feel hungry. 

my email is aacampora@gmail.com

ill email my cell and we can text :) 

god bless and thanks again for being so inviting!

xoxo.

hi im ashley.  im new to this site.  ive been battling eating disorders for over 5 years.  ive hit rock bottom and need to get back to my old weight.  here are my stats ... :(

cw-175
hw-186
lw-108
gw1-160
gw2-140
gw3-120
gw4-110

im 5'10.  im a fatass.  im fasting tommorow (only water). i had a big binge today :(  i need to snap out of it and focus.  if anyone has any helpful tips on detox and/or good foods thatd be much appreciated :)

thanks!

xoxo.

N00b sounding Iknow
but does anyone know how many calories your body burns heating up ice cold water?
For any amount.
I remember hearing it was like 100 calories for some amount...like a litre or something? I don't remember.
Anyone please? :)

i want to lose at least 15 more lbs
i fast but i also purge
it makes me really tired and light headed so i dont exercise
how long will it take for me to finally be the perfect weight
p.s. can some one explain the "september diet" to me

 hey guys!
i feel sooooooooo fat today!!!
i had 5 wheat crackers and some soup for lunch.....ugh. then my class gave us candy and stuff and my friends were practically forcing me to eat it...i dont know y but they did...they were like..."OMG THIS IS SOOO GOOD CASSIE!!!!!" "JUST EAT SOME!" and then i was like....wtf get away from me...so yea....it sucked cuz i caved and ate it. well yea it just sucked today...im not gonna eat dinner cuz my dad isnt going to be home until 11 tonight so i can just say that i ate....well im pretty excited about not eating tonight but that is my only good thing that happened today....T.G.I.F.!!!!

i dont have to eat at school anymore for lunch...so thats great...well for 2 days anyway! now i just have to worry about my dad. he is forcing me to eat everytime i say im not really hungry. i tell him that i ate before but he doesnt beleive me so what can i say this time to make him beleive me? IM GOING CRAZY!

Fasted for 3 days
then had 1000 cals today
I feel SOOO fat
I'm bloated too due to being a female
curse you mother nature!!!
curseee youuuuuuuuuu
I work tomorrow
I can fast again
and I shall!

ok so theres this guy (classic intro i know)
And i met him last year and we "hooked up" what ever that really means at a party.
I haven't talked to him sense besides saying hey once or twice
and i'm really weird about guys because once i am attracted to one i cant stop thinking about them like at all.
ahghg it's frustrating because I don't really know him or his friends.
I really like this guy and i want to talk to him.. i'm so pathetic help me

So, today I finished 2468 (Sorry, I know I've been mentioning it all week) and feel fat and am mad I did but who knows it could have worked and maybe it gave my metabolism a little boost...Anyways, I'm gonna do a liquid fast for the rest of the weekend.

The only problem is I just started working/training at Coldstone and when you practice mixing the ice cream they might make you eat it D: And today a manager bought us dinner so she might offer again, and if I'm there all day I can't say I'm not hungry. Hopefully, things will work out. If I am forced to eat I'll start the next day.

Hope you all are doing well :D
<3

might sound stupid.... but i just binged on grapes. i had like a whole bag of them. i want to know if i should worry about this. i know it's mostly water but it still freaks me out. can i run them off or should i purge now???

After nearly blacking out, I looked it up and realized I most likely have iron deffieciency anemia. Nearly all my symptoms fit.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Iron_deficiency_(medicine)

anyone one else have this?

I'm gonna start over pretend 2 b ttly better my main goal right now is get discharged from renfrew so I can stay in my room and starve I need 2 b sickly skinny b4 january today I utterly failed and wanna die but 2mrw will be better idk if any1 here has ever seen spirited away but the entire movie is crammed with reverse thinspo
Xoxo little miss nervosa

Him: You will get down to the weight that your comfortable with.
Me: The funny thing is this, I will never be comfortable with my weight.

Convo between me and the boyfriend.


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K so I have this problem that I do every night. I do really good not eating during the day but like an hour after I go to bed I wake up and I go into the kitchen and eat. Then the next day I wake up and feel disgusting and no one in my family gets it they say that its fine to eat in the middle of the night but they dont understand that I have an eating problem actually they dont know because they dont pay enough attention to notice
so after I eat in the middle of the night I feel worthless so I try not to eat anything during the day
if anyone knows any tricks to help me stop waking up and eating please help!!
thanks

grrr, i'm feeling frustrated!!! alright, i'm doing good, exercising, diet, and lost 2.8 pounds in like 6 days!! now my fiancee calls me and said that in TWO days of diet he lost SEVEN pounds, how can that be possible??, damn it!!! somehow it is hard to believe!! i just can't!! i think he is lying!! crap!!!
and the thing is that we will go next friday to get our marriage license and i need to lose more,
ahh, is just that i don't want him to lose more than i do!! i think i'm being selfish, ahh, i don't want that!!
then he said that in a month before our wedding party he would like to lose more!!! 15 pounds at the minimum!! grrrrrrrr, and he said: "I can do that easily" bullshit!!
so, i just don't want him to weight the same as meeee!!! i would TOTALLY HATE THAT!!! right now he is 22 pounds heavier than me!!

sooo i am down to 164 from 168. I only had 500 Calories today!!! Tomorrow I am going to try to go without eating same with sunday. What do you guys do when you fast?

Someone convince me that I dont need pills.

I think I'm cracking up.
I think too much lately... Damn public school.
Its a bunch of force-fed memory game bullshit anyways.

I kinda wanna go to Wal-Mart right now... No idea why..

Hi, I am so depressed I can't even start.
And because I depressed I am binging.. which even upsets me more! Its like a way to punish my self even more, I purge most of the time, but today I binged on Tasti D lite and rice cakes.. and didnt purged..
So basically, I broke up with my bf 2 weeks ago and I was so happy until now, I dated few guys, had great time.. but now I feel so sad and lonely. We spoke on the phone today and he miss me., but he dated two girls, nothing seriouse but its painful for me to hear... He doesn't even ask about me? how I am doing? I think he is trying to hurt me on porpose and to make me hurt..
he posted a pic of him and another girl, she is ugly anyway, so I dont care.. lol..
but I am so upset, I want to go on a liquid fast for a week now, starting tomorrow!

just needed to talk to someone, seems like all my friends are busy, and I dont realy have someone to really tell everything..

 I hope you all are doing better...